Learning to Sit With God

As many of you know, this journey—from diagnosis to now—has been unlike anything I’ve ever experienced, especially when it comes to my relationship with God.

There have been so many questions. So much confusion. So many moments where I simply haven’t known what to think or how to make sense of it all.

I’ve continued to pray, read my Bible, read encouraging books, and spend time with wise, godly people. All of those things have been gifts.

But the spiritual practice that has helped me more than anything else has been contemplative prayer and worship.

I like to grab a cup of coffee, sit in the living room, and play soft, slow worship music. There’s no agenda. No pressure to have the right words. No need to figure everything out.

It’s simply time to sit with my Father in heaven.

I tell Him the honest things. I make room to listen. I let the deepest thoughts and fears in my heart slowly rise to the surface instead of pushing them away.

And almost every time, I leave with the same powerful sense: I am completely understood and deeply loved exactly where I am.

That doesn’t mean all my questions get answered. It doesn’t mean my fears disappear. But it does mean I remember that I’m not carrying any of this alone.

God willing, this is a practice that will far outlast my time as a cancer patient. In many ways, this season has introduced me to a slower, deeper way of being with God that I never want to lose.

What about you?

When do you make space for unhurried, uninterrupted time simply to sit in God’s presence?

Even if it starts with just five minutes, what would it look like to build that into your daily rhythm?

You might be surprised by what rises to the surface—and even more surprised by how loved and understood you discover yourself to be.